5 Days Ago
As I type this I’m on a 5-hour flight to New York where I’ll be getting on the next plane for 7 hours, listening to the entertainment section of this American Airlines flight, and on the verge of tears because of how tired I am. I’m on my way to London for the first time ever. A lot of firsts are about to happen. This is the first time I experience turbulence (very high) in the air. This is the first time I travel without my parents. This is the first time I leave and live in a different country. This is the first time I write while somewhere in the sky.
I’ll be living + studying in London for four months and there is no hiding how excited I am. But with this excitement came the quick realization of fear. I haven’t arrived yet but I know the environment will be different to that of which I'm used to. This includes the people, places, weather, food, currency, etc. but I think the most terrifying is how far away I’ll be from family. During the past four years I’ve spent studying in university, I've lived away from home but never 12+ hours away.
I have a lot of aspirations living in London. I want to travel and visit places I never imagined I would. I want to meet and have conversations with people; all kinds of them. I want to drink London coffee. I want to grasp every opportunity of knowledge I am given, educational or not.
I always hear people say they find themselves while traveling. I hope it’s true.
What I've learned in London so far:
It's hotter than I imagined
Jet lag is definitely a thing
Loads of walking
British people are so nice
London nightlife is amazing
I miss my family
I'm not comfortable being alone
British men are beautiful
I haven't ran into One Direction (upset + disappointed)
I've been in London for a total of 5 days now and I've learned a lot about the city and myself. The most shocking being that I am not as comfortable being alone as I thought I was. This came as a total surprise. My whole life I've thought of myself as someone who is quick to adapt to change. It's something I brag about because it's a quality I admire in others but since arriving, I found myself avoiding any instance of being alone. I think a big reason for this is my fear of being homesick. I've been away from family before but never alone. When I went off to college, I had friends I met prior to leaving. I knew what to expect. Coming abroad was completely different; a new experience and I think that's what scares me the most. It's going to take time to adjust to being alone but I know it'll be okay. Plus, I heard getting lost in London is one of the best things you can do.
Coming abroad is honestly a dream come true, especially living in London. I had to sacrifice a lot to get here so I want to make my time in London valuable, not only for myself but for those who supported my decision to leave. That includes my family, who I love and miss so badly, and to my friends who had to keep up with my constant bickering and obsession of British accents, music, and boys.
I'm excited for what's to come but most importantly to share it all with you.
As Harry Styles would,
All the love. A