C'est La Vie
Three years ago I adapted a new way of thinking that has since then changed my life for the better. I used to worry a lot about life and love and appearances. As expected, this was not the best for me or my life.
As a student in high school, my biggest focus was getting the requirements needed to go to college. Not just any college but a great college. I needed to go because it was necessary to set an example for my little sister and extended family. I stayed up late and woke up early. I even drank coffee. I was only 17. Can you image a 17-year-old drinking coffee? Now I can but then, back then... that was an awful thing.
Through college I worried about making my family proud and growing to their expectations. My first worry was their worry and not my own. I needed to become better for them. I had to fall into a career they found best and not a career that I thoroughly had a passion for and enjoyed.
As a human, my aim was to please others in the way I looked, acted, and portrayed myself. I needed to look good for them.
I lived to please people around me and I never realized the importance behind pleasing myself. When something did not fall into place, I blamed myself. But the funny thing is that it wasn’t my fault. It was life.
Life happens as it will. It just does. It’s a mentality I adapted during the start of my twenties. Letting life be does not mean you sit in your bed and wait for it to happen. It means you work to steer your life in the direction you want to obtain and if it doesn’t work out, for any reason, it’s okay. It’s life. Find what you love, work like crazy and while you do so, take care of yourself. Love yourself. Your body, mind and soul are your greatest assets. Nurture them, make them better, make them yours. Find your passions. Good things will follow after.
“Most things will be okay eventually, but not everything will be. Sometimes you'll put up a good fight and lose. Sometimes you'll hold on really hard and realize there is no choice but to let go. Acceptance is a small, quiet room.” - Cheryl Strayed
Accept it and move along. You’ll be okay in the end because life happens as it will.
I now understand the importance behind living for myself. It's beautiful. C'est la vie.